This is the heartache of Günter Grass' The Tin Drum:
“We were convinced that she looked on with indifference if she
noticed us at all. Today I know that everything watches, that nothing goes
unseen, and that even wallpaper has a better memory than ours. It isn't God in
His heaven that sees all. A kitchen chair, a coathanger, a half-filled ash
tray, or the wooden replica of a woman named Niobe can perfectly well serve as
an unforgetting witness to every one of our acts” (177).
The bildungsroman and picaresque forms dart toward maturity where the realist novel wanders beyond its pages. In this way, the two are like plays, exercises in set design, built upon on this formula: "[this place] looked [this way] and its [features] were exactly the color of [unexpected comparison] and [this profound change] took place here." Oskar Matzerath's tin drums are his only environmental constant, so his melancholy glances back at the Maritime Museum, Fräulein Spollenhauer's classroom, and the wintry storefronts' sliced windows have not seen everything that creates the Oskar we see in his cell and posted bed, like Jan's execution. The cursed masthead Niobe only knows Oskar for ten pages, so her "unforgiving witness" cannot condemn very much. We must ask, is his imprisonment to blame for this newfound feeling of surveillance? Regardless, at a certain point in one's life, it seems, only one's cups and books follow them, as Oskar's tin drums, or my copy of Anne Sexton's Live or Die, whose centerpiece poem, "Wanting to Die," concludes:
"Balanced there, suicides sometimes meet,
raging at the fruit, a pumped-up moon,
leaving the bread they mistook for a kiss,
leaving the page of the book carelessly open,
something unsaid, the phone off the hook
and the love, whatever it was, an infection."
The poet's death seeps into her entire kitchen. Oskar's prison allows him to delve back into his past, with no more urgent obligations to steal his time. The Tin Drum as picaresque/bildungsroman extends only to young Oskar. For him, his mind is Niobe. For Bruno's Oskar, our narrator, the man shushed at night for his aggressive playing, the mind is a prison.